MADHATTERS

MADHATTERS -> it's actually our company's annual dinner night event held on last Saturday @ Cyberjaya. To me, quiet a boring night as I'm not so into the social life...

So thru out the night, I'm just sat there, took some pictures and wait for the grand prize for the lucky draw sessions. Foods are provided, overall the foods is tasty and delicious. There are wine and beer provided, but i didn't take it much cause I need to drive...haha. I was sit together with few of my colleagues, but you know, even said we are the teammates, but, SERIOUSLY, we're no topic at all...and you know, I'm actually not the type who speak a lot but rather to wait for someone to open a topic and lead me with, so, kind of bored. Luckily that there are some games and performance wake me up, so I don't really feel asleep (although I've few yawn thru out the night).

I'd love the performance, help by some of our colleagues, I didn't know that they really can sing, and really really awasome!!!

Unfortunately, I didn't get anything but the door-gift for the night.

And back home, my dear is not around, another thing that make me..kinda bore for the day :(

PICTURES OF THE NIGHT:

Posting

I think, this month I really posted out lots of post here, compare to last month and last last month; maybe I'm very free this month...

I'm sitting all in office, have my Ipod Touch tune-up, On my FB for the purpose to play RC (Restaurant City, in case you're not player)...and reading some blogs and chit-chatting with the beau--> via gtalk, of course, hahaha

Time now, 10:45am, I'm so glad I came in work early, 'cause I'm leaving the office at 3pm today...fellows, please, work hard for the rest of the day, and if you can't, don't waste time in office, 'cause it is...
FRIDAY!!!!

Yo!

Decisions

I was thinking, deeply, hardly...
Whether I suppose to get Leona Lewis's or OneRepublic's latest album; it's so itchy for me which I can't take two of them...

I'm asking the beau, but he said it's pain to get two at the same time; what he mean actually is, scare there will be "DELUXE" version for both of their albums. I'd knew that OR (OneRepublic) already announced and 'shareable' the DELUXE version.

but you know, either LL (Leona Lewis) or OR, the latest are so nice and more over my expectation. Hohoho...Since the beau said: "sak sak la .. dun lau gai la ...
at least wait until next year and see they got announce any concert or not lo" then I've decided, to wait until next year, although...I'm so itchy and so much want to have these album before X'mas...Huhuhuhu

I WAIT!!! >.< **Impatiently**

I'm not sure...whether I'm guilty...or not.

I'm not really sure...whether...I'm guilty or not.

I'm sure myself in a relationship, just that, we're not that ordinary type of couples...if you get what I mean, yes, I'm.

As mentioned, I didn't tell everyone around me, about what kind of my dear really is...I'm just scare that not everyone can except the way we do, although there are a lot of couples like us, but we're not the type that like to open the relationship...too obviously...

I don't mean to lie, or fooling anyone, I should hide myself that "I'm in a relationship"...from now onward, but to those who knew our relation, I'll not pretend again...Yeah, it's really, really tiring to being pretend myself, to put on a invisible mask everyday...it's so difficult to me, 'cause I'm not get use to this way...Maybe I'm stupid or what, I just know that I don't have to..."What if you cannot being yourself, is this still mean that you're still alive?"...someone said this to me before, I'm regret and wake up immediately...I'm a LIVE human, I can't play fool to myself 'cause it's not me!

I'm so happy to be myself...So, if you dare to ask me, "are you gay?", I'll give you an answer, with no regret, "Yes, I do"....

Life is such complicated, twisted, sometimes; Love is a miracle, bring no regret to you life and being yourself, being true to yourself!

Success and Loss

I don't know whether I put it in very clear statement or not; I'm actually don't look so heavy on "Success" or "Loss". WHY? hmm, my answer will be, a question to ask yourself, what if you success and what happen if you loss?

Maybe when you are success, you will have something in return, eg: Money? If this is satisfy you, yes, you go ahead; but don't think that you are special or extra-ordinary, please. When there is a person who WON the competition, there is a person FAIL the competition. Your happiness is just a minute? a moment? a whole life? Think back, you will not always success, you will get down someday, too...

I'm not really well in explanation, I'm fine with anyone joke around me, make fun of or look down of me. That's fine if this make you happier. I'm a really easy-going person, I'm not saying that I'm a kind-heart or good guy, but I won't always put things so caring into me; except my dear...

I don't even bother someone I not familiar, I'm not even have a word with...To tell seriously, everything I do, or i'm attending with, I don't after anything...Especially successful or loss. Yeah, I don't even care about it.

Life make easy when you're peace in mind.

What is my achievement?

It's really tough, whenever I look at this question or someone asking me with such, difficult question to me...I not really know......

"A pity man" - who do not have any ambition, any target or goal with...Maybe I'm under this group of people. I don't hold any ambition, in my career, or life...or maybe I too relax and don't even what is happening around me. But, I'm will still take care of my dear, no matter in what situation, any circumstances, I don't want to lost him. That's why, I want to protect my love.

To say that, or answering, "what is my achievement" (life or career), in anyway, I can say, "Not a successful not yet an achievement"; I don't successful in anything, plan or dreams, and I don't achieve any goal yet, or maybe I don't even set any goal for myself yet.

So, if you see me, and want to ask this question, I will answer you, "NOT A SUCCESSFUL NOT YET AN ACHIEVEMENT"...hopes this will satisfy your curiosy

DECEMBER

Wow...Time flies fast, it's another year's end!

I can say, I'm totally in the holiday mood for this month. I even have my X'mas decor in my room before December. Hahaha, although I don't have a hosue yet, but i still want to get a X'mas tree decor in my room. Wow, it's amazing and I can't wait any longer to X'mas eve!!!

Time really passing fast, this year, happened a lot, came across the hard time and after that I stood up and now, I'm going nowhere...It's all right, I will stay strong and, although I haven't get the confirmation from the offer yet, but I'm confident that there isn't any issue for me. (Sound like over-confident)

Go or Stay, actually doesn't make any much difference for me, but, I just don't want to stay where I not really belong to...It's time, to listen back - LINKIN PARK: SOMEWHERE I BELONG.

Let's rock! Wow!